Monday, January 27, 2014

When we started to dedicate to each other...

It was last year, around this time when i received a phone call from him. "Tune to TV3. I dedicate this song to you". It was Anugerah Juara Lagu and Hafiz is singing Ku Akui that time. Guess what? Not knowing why but tears starts to glide on my cheek. Cis! Not pretty at all. To make it worst, i was with my prospect, having dinner in a restaurant with full of people. Worsen, my prospect couldn't take it easily. Of course he is bengang and jealous. My fault. Should have take that call somewhere but not in front of him. My bad.

This year round, i texted him. "TV3 please. This song is for you". Again, a song from Hafiz, Bahagiamu Deritaku. Haha. He replied " I am listening but i refused to understand". Lebih kurang begitulah. I couldn't help myself but to laugh. I found it funny. Funny because i can imagine his face while texting me. Haha.

The dark cloud has passed and i am now looking forward for a brighter day with rainbow and big fluffy coulds (and sunset too!) ;)


Saturday, December 21, 2013

This is why i call them "besties"!

Just a short one.

Was at Emma's house for her engagement with her beau. You surely pretty much do not have any idea on how happy my friends and i to witness her engagement. It is not just a ceremony but a one level up before getting married. Sobs. Nasib la tak Ema tu asik gelak je...cemana nak touching. Truly happy  for her. She took quite a long time to open up her heart to someone else. Finally! Alhamdulillah.

Well...thats not the main point here. Not just yet. Just now, when i was making my way to her house with me carrying a hot lasagna and my wallet, Emma passed a bomb to me. Yeah, a bomb! Dia pass baby kecik kat aku. What was on her mind? Baby and me? Hurmmmm.

So i sat on the couch with the baby lazily sitting on my lap. Hmmph! Nasib tak menangis. So while sitting on the couch, i happily chit chatting with the gurls. Ye la....lama tak catch up. When suddenly, that baby barfed on my sleeves. I repeat, she barfed. I know la muntah susu kut. I seeked help from my girls and you know what happened? Emma, pro long her tele-conversation with her fiance sambil jeling jeling. Shiela,just look and smile at me. Yamie, a mother of one son, said "Nanti..nanti..." sambil tangan dia raba-raba beg. So i tot she wanted to pass me a tissue ke....macam sweet lah kan..guess what? Dia cakap "Mana boleh miss moment ni. Bukan selalu" sambil tangan dia keluarkan hp and snap my photo and laughed. Oh ya, Shiela pun sambung.. "Once in a bluemoon kak nina...". Besties katanyer...Itulah besties aku. T_T

Gambar? Mimpilah. Memang takkan la letak kat sini. No No No.

Oklah. Thats about it only. Short but "sweet". Next time...please! Please dont pass your baby to me before she burp. Ok?

Bye! Nak mandi. Baby muntah kat baju.


Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Under the weather.

Its the season where many of us might fall sick. You can blame the weather. Anything.
Up to you.
However, just a little advice from me. (Because i me!)

  • Drink plenty of water. Ah, in this case may i suggest you to drink mineral water instead of tap water. Safer.
  • Eat nutritious food. Avoid oily food and those food that is too complex and hard to digest. 
  • Enough rest for your body. A 6 to 8 hours of sleep would do. Anything less or more is not necessary. Penat je lebih nanti.
  • On meds if necessary. We are aint super heroes. If you think such way, drop it! ;)
  • Stay calm and enjoy being loved by God. A test is how God shows His love towards you. So, embrace it.
So, please take care of yourself.



Monday, December 16, 2013


Been thinking hard on what actually happened on last weekend.  I was coughing quite bad and had no choice but to wake up. It was 6.00am in the morning, i remember. In the dark, my hand started searching for my meds supply. Then i coughed again. I coughed about 3 times and stop. When suddenly i heard the 4th cough. It wasnt me! It wasn't my sister either! Gulp!

There was no one else in the room except for my sister and me, of course. If it was not us, then who was coughing at that time?



Thursday, December 5, 2013

The Lost Soul

It has been a while since i last posted my entry.  It has been a journey to find back my lost soul in writing and almost everything. Everything seems to be in a mess before and i just couldn't clean those mess.....alone. Yet, the mess is still there, some of it, part of it. In the same time, i have another mess waiting to be cleaned up. A new one. Duh!

With some left over strength, i try hard to mend the broken pieces of my heart. I try hard. I really try hard.
I do really really try hard.

Talking about heart matters, i have rest my case. I leave it to God. He is my best friend now, He is my crying shoulder, He is the one i pour my heart out. My sadness will make me near to Him. I know, i have long forgotten about Him but He is always there for me. Always.

Just to let you know, im in the midst of not contacting someone whom has been quite vulnerable to my heart, lately. I am sorry, candy. There is a reason of me doing that. It may sounds silly but i don't wanna act silly in front of you. My confidence, my strength is wearing thin but not my feeling towards you. Please remember that.

"Whenever im with you (virtually), my heart skips a beat."

Yours Truly.